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Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Thought
As I sit here mind reeling racing
Uncertain of the future
I know that at any moment you can be taken away. But at the same time how can you have thoughts that the world and almost everyone in it would benefit from the removal of me from this world.
The people that I love and would miss me would have a gigantic burden lifted from their shoulders. At least then I could be remembered for a positive life. That being said.....NO I do not have a death wish no I am not going to off myself. I have seen first hand what that does. I just can not seem to shake the thought of "why didn't I die?" the birth of my son would have never happened is the biggest reason. It is just hard because in the past few years I have done nothing but dig us deeper. This is the point where most reach for religion. In my life I have reached out several times to no result or peace.
Now I know I am lucky to survive the things I have or had someone watching over me. But how about when my friend took his own life? Or how about when my best friend has a daughter stricken with disease and only to live until 8 years old.
What plan is there in that? Or another friend in a wreck very similar to mine. He doesn't survive. While in the hospital he kept my spirits up. But I don't get to return the favor. Now explain to me what "gods plan" is in all of that? I don't want to denounce or put down religion just please see how I don't have much faith in it.
Uncertain of the future
I know that at any moment you can be taken away. But at the same time how can you have thoughts that the world and almost everyone in it would benefit from the removal of me from this world.
The people that I love and would miss me would have a gigantic burden lifted from their shoulders. At least then I could be remembered for a positive life. That being said.....NO I do not have a death wish no I am not going to off myself. I have seen first hand what that does. I just can not seem to shake the thought of "why didn't I die?" the birth of my son would have never happened is the biggest reason. It is just hard because in the past few years I have done nothing but dig us deeper. This is the point where most reach for religion. In my life I have reached out several times to no result or peace.
Now I know I am lucky to survive the things I have or had someone watching over me. But how about when my friend took his own life? Or how about when my best friend has a daughter stricken with disease and only to live until 8 years old.
What plan is there in that? Or another friend in a wreck very similar to mine. He doesn't survive. While in the hospital he kept my spirits up. But I don't get to return the favor. Now explain to me what "gods plan" is in all of that? I don't want to denounce or put down religion just please see how I don't have much faith in it.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Wednesday
Something I threw together yesterday
Trying to write less sad things.
You put your nose to the grindstone
You gotta see things through
Will power determination
Make a man out of you
Keep things in always in perspective
Don't let the dream start to fade
Don't let the assholes try to talk you out of The decisions you made
Keep your head up
Your shoulders back
Now raise both your fists
It's time to attack!!!!!
Trying to write less sad things.
You put your nose to the grindstone
You gotta see things through
Will power determination
Make a man out of you
Keep things in always in perspective
Don't let the dream start to fade
Don't let the assholes try to talk you out of The decisions you made
Keep your head up
Your shoulders back
Now raise both your fists
It's time to attack!!!!!
Friday, June 8, 2012
Thought of the day
I'm far from perfect
I'm Not even close
Check your reflection
And the life that you chose
You don't really know me
I know you the same
The difference is
I won't throw you under that train.
I'm Not even close
Check your reflection
And the life that you chose
You don't really know me
I know you the same
The difference is
I won't throw you under that train.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Saturday may 5th
The band I'm (SECONDARY) in played a show in Hillsboro at the colony theater.
Was a great time and look forward to many more
check out www.wearesecondary.com
Was a great time and look forward to many more
check out www.wearesecondary.com
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